Surprise!

Ok, so lets try this again. 

Since it's only been 2 years (or so), its not like there is much that's happened.  Still in the Denver Metro.  We FINALLY sold our house in KS.  We did buy a house here.  Not in Elizabeth, not the land that I wanted, but at least I can't hear my neighbors in the bathroom routines.  Or bedroom routines.  *shudder*  We also adopted a dog. 

Her name is Tinkerbelle.  She is our baby.

Life has been interesting.  I'm still at the same company.  I didn't get the promotion I expected, but I did get a different one in January.  I'm now in marketing. 

J was laid off from the job that we moved here for.  They closed the office and that was that.  It took a couple of months, but he found a new job.  He just finished a year there in February.

There hasn't been any huge life altering changes.  No children, except the furry ones.  I haven't run off and joined the Peace Corp. Nothing too interesting.  :)  I do have some projects coming up, and maybe some pics of the house. 

Denver

I really hate Denver.  Or at least, the Denver Metro.  I miss Pomona.  Nice, quiet.  Ottawa was close if we needed anything.  Denver - loud, busy, stinky, too many people, never any quiet.....

and so, we're looking at a house.  In Elizabeth.  Hopefully, something like this:


that contains this:

on this:


It's just a dream, for now.

On the up side, I have a possible promotion coming at work.  One of the guys has been impressed iwth my work I guess and wants to take me and train me to eventually become the contracts manager.

I would kill for my own office at this point.

Forgiveness

I'm bad at forgiveness. It's something I'm working on but I just can't seem to get that anger and resentment out of my heart.

On....stuff

What has there been to say?  Some days I hate it here so much, miss my family and friends, my home, my old job so much that I could sit and cry for hours?  No one wants to hear that.  That some days I love the independance of moving away from everyone we know, the lack of obligations, the excitement of life, that I never want to go back?  No one wants to hear that either.

So I just keep plodding along.  A new friend told me that I was too responsible, so I quit my job.  There were many reasons, just a few of which: I was working crappy hours, made crappy money, had to babysit their kid (in the middle of pottytraining) while also trying to work, got yelled at constantly, had to deal with double standards and so much more.  I lasted a little over six months, gave them a weeks notice and they told me that I could just leave that afternoon.  Really?  The only thing I miss was the kid.  I didn't like having to work and take care of her at the same time, but there's just something endearing about having your bosses kid walk in and immediately climb in your lap and give you a hug because she's gotten to know you so well over the last few months.  Really, this kid could even talk about the shoes I wore last week.  NOT KIDDING.

And, without going in to too much detail for people, we've found out that it will be hard for us to have kids.  We've been "letting nature take it's course" for almost 2 years and nothing, so I'm guessing it'll be pretty hard indeed.  It kills me to see kids and hear people talk about their kids.  And I hate myself for that because I love kids and I love my friends.  It's a love/hate thing going on with me right now.  I can't really talk about because my husband just feels guilty and then sulks and pouts when I do.  Oh well, I'm almost 24.  Another 16 years and I won't have to worry about it anymore, right?

I was offered a job today as an office assistant and eventual office manager once i get a feel for the job and company.  I'll be making much better money, with benefits.  I'll have to go clothes shopping because I don't own very many clothes dressy enough for this job.  I've sold out.  I swore I'd never work just for money and insurance and thats exactly what I've done.  And for what reason???  Who am I becoming?  Oh, right.  An adult.  Great.

So thats what's going on in my life.  Greetings from Snowy Colorado!  HA!

On camping, and moving

We went camping this weekend.  Oh mother nature, how I love thee.  The freaky little black mouse-squirrels that chatter at you, in what I am shure is squirrel for "Eff you you bastards, you're messing up my nut burrying!"  The little chipmunks, the marmots.  (What the HELL is a marmot anyway?  Freaky groundhog things.)  Best of all, at night, its just the wind in the trees and the sound of an owl or maybe a few bats.  No screaming kids, sirens, traffic, and no neighbors screaming at her baby-daddy about how she can't get her weave fixed because he's too lazy to get a job.  (Not that that's a mostl-true stereotype of half of our neighbors in this building.  Not at ALL....)

The one thing about it though, any time we get back, I want to flippin kiss the person who invented indoor plumbing.  I'm not really  much for peeing behind a tree.  Although, given the choice, I would rather pe behind the tree than on the top of a mountain where there's no cover, besides the Jeep, for about 20 miles around.  Not that this happened.  On this mountain.  Ah-Hem. 

This was actually taken by a friend of ours.  I had some amazing pictures, but none that really caputured the height of the mountain.  Notice, this entire shot is well ABOVE the tree line.

The perk of that was that I now know how to pee without taking my pants off or peeing on them.  Score one for me!

I fail to understand why anyone would not want to take full advantage of the miracle of indoor plumbing.  I guess I could ask the guy peeing off the balcony of the apartment a cuple of floors above us last month.  On the other hand, how about not.

Have I mentioned that I'm happy as hell to be moving for the 4th time in 2 1/2 years?  No?  I'm about to start doing flippin cartwheels.    We get to start moving in about two weeks.  And hopfully I'll never know the ending to the balad of the neighbor, her weave, her baby-daddy, and the much screamed about job.

Well, I guess we're all settled in Aurora.  "Settled"  Jordan loves his job.  We're looking for a better place to live, and I need to find a job.  I  just don't want to.  The idea of having to go to and from work here is just exhausting in itself.  I can't understand why people want to do it.  Why people give themselves such stressful lives on purpose.

On the upside, the one thing about living here that I really love - I live across the street from an organic grocery store.  Now, they're more expensive on meat and dairy than back home, but cheaper on fresh produce.  So, surprisingly, it's been a lot easier to eat healthy here.  Instead of buying hamburger helper on sale for $0.75, I'm buying romaine and red leaf lettuce for $0.88 each.  (I haven't seen a head of iceburg there yet.) 

This evening - a jar of spaghetti sauce, 2 mangoes,  a bunch of romaine lettuce, 2 bunches of red leaf lettuce, 3 tomatoes, 5 lbs of chicken tenders, 4 apples, a bunch of radishes, a big container of yogurt, a bottle of apple juice, a small bunch of bananas, 3 red bell peppers, two small blocks of cheese, and 3 avocados for $41.  I don't think that's that bad.

My best deal tonight?  I had a coupon for kohl's.  Normally, I hate kohls.  I think their stuff is WAY expensive and for only average quality.  To  me, it's a status thing, not really a value thing.  But, they're having a father's day sale and I  had this coupon.  $10 anything in the store, clearance included.  So I went to buy J a new shirt, since he has to have more dress casual stuff for work now instead of his ratty work clothes that he used to have to wear.  I went straight to the clearance racks.  Not much that he would wear.  No stripes, no pastels, no prints really.  Preferably a light weight polo or button down shirt.  I found one that was ok.  Not one that he'll be thrilled with, but it'll be ok.  Sage green polo.  Originally $26.  When I picked it up, the sign just said on sale 30-50% off, but didn't give an exact sale price.  I just figured even at 30% off, and my $10, it'd still be a decent price.  Imagine my surprise at the register when the girl told me I didn't owe anything.  The shirt was $9.99 on sale.  With my $10 coupon?  Oh yeah, one shirt, completely FREE baby!!!

Ok, so that's really all the rambling I have energy for.  I haven't gotten used to the fast pace here.  It just sucks the energy out of me.

Oh boy...

It's been awhile.  Ok.  So.

1.  I'm moving to Colorado.  Aurora, for now.  J found a job there so off we go.  Saturday.  Yes, it's sudden.  heh.  Yes, I'm pretty much freaking out.

2. We're renting our house out.  I think this will be good, but I have reservations.  Just because I'm cautious, but I'm trusting my house to other people, and that's hard for me.

3. I'm moving into an apartment half the size of my house.  Without a washer and dryer or hookups.  This makes me miserable. 

4. Jordan and I have been fighting about said apartment and said job and much more that is unsaid.  This whole process was not well thought out or well executed.  He just kind of seen and did.  He didn't really THINK.  Neither did I though.  There was too much to do in too little time.

Honestly, that's all I've got for now.